Saki <3 Porsche.

2012-02-13T13:40:00.000-08:00

Too bad to keep, too good to throw away.

you just don't know me.

2012-01-12T01:26:00.000-08:00

Some days I feel like shit,

Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,

I don't understand why you have to always be gone,

I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay by the phone,

'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,

But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,

But when I pick up I don't have much to say,

So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,

With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,

I'm doin' fine, and I'm plannin' to keep it that way,

You can call me if you find that you have something to say

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',

Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,

For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,

It seems one thing has been true all along,

You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone.

Where'd you go?

2011-12-20T15:33:00.000-08:00

他让你红了眼眶，你却还笑着原谅

原来你早就想好要留在谁的身旁

也许我太过天真以为奇迹会发生

我以为，我以为，我够坚强

2011-12-14T04:55:00.000-08:00

Before you start the war, you better know what you're fighting for.

I want to live, not just survive.

And now I don't care if heaven doesn't take me back.

A soldier I will be.

Angel with a shotgun

2011-12-11T13:33:00.000-08:00

Between me and you

The Ugly ~~Truth.~~

2011-12-11T13:23:00.000-08:00

Colors and promises

How to be brave

How can I love when I'm afraid to fall

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubts

Suddenly goes away somehow

I have died everyday waiting for you
I have loved you for a thousand years

2011-12-07T03:19:00.000-08:00

你給我一个圈套

我不能跳不能遁逃

我拿什么和你计较

不痛的人不受煎熬

曲终 , 人散

2011-11-27T01:49:00.000-08:00

When she asks,
Tell her the truth.
It's the chance she gave,
Cus' she already knew the answer.

2011-11-22T14:48:00.000-08:00

Your kind lies

I hate myself for wanting to believe it

If I wasn’t so sensitive

Would I have been able to spend more time next to you?

But I can hear it in me
The heart that’s about to leave
It hurts to see you being considerate

I’m sad at my anxious-self

Get me out of this path that will only lead me to despair

Your greed of not wanting to be a bad person

My greed of acting oblivious and tolerate this

This ugly truth

This is it, there’s no answer

You don't have to understand it, because I never expect you to.

2011-11-21T09:42:00.000-08:00

Hynopsis.

I don't seem to find the right word to say.

2011-11-19T23:32:00.000-08:00

NUMB.

2011-10-26T20:39:00.000-07:00

You didn't, You didn't know all the ways I loved You, no.

So You took a chance and made other plans.

You should've picked honesty

Then You may not have blown it.

Tell me You love me and You need me

Or GTFO.

.....Don't it make You sad about?

2011-10-05T11:47:00.000-07:00

You, saying that I’m not the same as I used to be, is not completely untrue

This changed me is a stranger to myself as well

I want to find myself now

Baby I’m sorry, even when I’m with you, I’m Lonely

I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this horrible person I am

I’m sorry, this is your and my story

I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I’m by your side

Cuz' I'm just another girl

2011-09-29T12:00:00.000-07:00

You thought I wouldn't sell without you

Sold 9 million.

It is the nature.

The nature of human.

Judgemental.

There is like a kernel in the heart.

I don't really possess the ability.

I can't,

I can't wait.

And by that time,

You, all of you,

Will never recognise Me.

You wanna fix me?

2011-09-18T19:09:00.000-07:00

I was loved, very much.

I had the most love.

He was the lion King to me.

Alas, I am dead when he is dead to me.

It is the end of loves, when the King is dead to me.

Can you?

Can you feel the pain?

2011-09-15T00:45:00.000-07:00

我想信我已经快要

快要把你忘掉

跟寂寞再和好

不再

不再爱

你还记不记得我的爱？

2011-09-10T13:11:00.000-07:00

I'm currently suffering from Mephobia.

Ha Ha Ha

Haters keep talking, we keep improving.

GTFO.

2011-09-09T22:07:00.000-07:00

Hi,

I would say it is nice talking to you, but it wasn't.

I guess words are really powerful.

Fantastic tool to tell lies.

You know what?

Making assumptions before knowing the truth makes you look like an idiot.

Giving self-obsessed advice seems even nuisance.

So just Shut your trap, get slew, cus' no one wants your opinion.

I'm totally digusted.

And there must be a reason why you come back on this crap again (:

2011-08-28T05:52:00.000-07:00

Every song reminds you of somebody.

Scenes playing with the song.

To make it feels a little alive.

Replaying those scenes, replaying the song.

I listened to the song for a whole night.

But you do not loop song.

2011-08-27T12:01:00.000-07:00

Unexpectedly unexpected.

Surprisingly surprised.

Obviously obvious,

that, it is different.

And if is really meant to be.

Really?

Really really.

2011-08-24T15:53:00.000-07:00

Dishonesty.

I admit that I'm a good liar too.

I prevent every chance for me to lie. And

Trust is like a mirror.

Even if you mend it,

you can still see the motherfucking crack in the reflection.

You tell a lot of lies, ain't you?

Just make me stop trusting you, please.

I'm ~~begging~~ you.

2011-08-19T13:33:00.000-07:00

Being awesome isn't healthy, that's why I'm always sick.

2011-08-16T10:08:00.000-07:00

You were feeling awkward.

Why so?

Am I that unapproachable?

Or are you feeling insecure?

I was the one who cried all night begging you to let me stay.

Ridiculous.

So are you still feeling insecure?

I'm empty.

No worries, I'm worst.

Just save it.

2011-08-09T10:45:00.000-07:00

Thought there was still a little amusement.

Alas, everything seems empty.

Again and again, it comes back and drags you to hell.

Miserable, so vulnerable.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

This blog is so sick, even myself do not understand.
So, don't fucking ask me what it is all about.

2011-07-19T22:20:00.000-07:00

Terrified.

It happend again.

No reason, it just happened.

I can't let it loose anymore.

I don't know what to do.

SAVE ME.

'Snap' again, and you need to visit me.

I'm scared.

2011-07-05T00:23:00.000-07:00

When the sky turns dark,

it is when your heart sink.

it is when you listen to your heart the most.

I don't want to open my eyes,

I don't want to face, face tomorrow

But my heart won't sink,
because i'm heart ~~less~~

2011-06-12T18:15:00.000-07:00

You know what

I cry myself to sleep

I wonder every moment

I am mad

I am sad

I am good at faking

Isn't it obvious?

Not obvious enough?

I talk to myself

I convince myself

I know I am nothing

Isn't it obvious?

Not obvious enough?

I bet you won't fucking understand if u never see those scars.

2011-06-08T00:03:00.000-07:00

I like the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise

Like the taste of your lips

Where I belong to?

I thought you are my everything

And now i just miss everything about you

It is irreversible, inevitable, inescapable

I never told you what I should have said

Sail is set, with no turning back

And I will end everything myself,

when I stopped cutting myself.

2011-06-04T12:10:00.000-07:00

you know it comes like this, it goes like this

you know it goes like this, it comes like this

i guess the pills don't work and the drinks don't work

in the morning it hurts like cigarette burns

2011-06-04T12:07:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday pretty boy.

~~Love~~, enough said.

2011-06-03T18:12:00.000-07:00

~~IRONIC.~~

Even if it is going to end, keep it classy.

Don't stop making assumption idiots.

Haters gonna hate.

2011-05-30T02:52:00.000-07:00

Hating the sin, loving the sinner.

Just let me be completely heartless.

You don't have to kill it, because it is already dead.

And you don't have to break it, because it is already broken.

2011-05-16T17:41:00.000-07:00

I don't like my reflection

I don't like what I see

I was staring in the shadow

Just to understand your pain

But when I needed you the most

You looked away

I loved you through your nothingness

Tell me that you will never leave me again

Am I still the one?

Are you sorry?

There's nothing left but ~~emptiness~~

2011-05-14T11:27:00.000-07:00

How much I wish that particular moment ~~stays~~ forever.

Thank you, for everything. (:

2011-04-20T06:22:00.000-07:00

When the moment you want to see me crash.

U already lost when U took the first step.

Get the fuck out boy, U ain't anything anymore. No, not, anymore.

And it cut like a knife when I ask you get a life.

2011-04-15T13:20:00.000-07:00

因为爱情不会轻易悲伤

所以一切都是幸福的模样

因为爱情简单的生长

依然随时可以为你疯狂

因为爱情怎么会有沧桑

所以我们还是年轻的模样

因为爱情在那个地方

依然还有人在那里游荡人来人往

因为爱情

我不再爱

2011-04-14T20:02:00.000-07:00

oohhhhh, time flies.

I was wearing my favourite checked shirt with my uncomfortable tube inside that day.

Didn't know there are so many things we like in common.

Hell yeah, i'm fussy, bossy, bitchy all da time. I know.

But you are awesome.

Best friend stays with you forever.

Don't wanna give you extra wishes other than the best one, but make it youself!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DESMOND KUN =]

2011-04-12T23:15:00.000-07:00

" I'm sorry, but it wasn't what I thought." he said.
" Sorry? 5 years! I gave you all of me, and you throw it into trash! Does her lips taste better than mine?" Jennifer cried.

He never knew that he will do everything to get one more chance.
If, if only he knew what he knows today.
Today, at her funeral, he can't, he can't even stand straight, can't stop his trembling lips.

It always involve death, death of the heart.

2011-04-12T01:02:00.000-07:00

Oh my boy

I love you

Like I never ever loved no one before you

boy you're mine

Just tell me you love me too

Oh my boy

I need you

Oh my boy I do

Let me inside

Make me stay

Right beside you

IF, if I can ever found one.
And what if I can take it no more?

2011-04-07T01:02:00.000-07:00

What can I do, to make you mine

Falling so hard so fast this time

What did I say, what did you do?

How did I fall in love with you?

No, this is not my ~~heart.~~

2011-04-06T11:59:00.000-07:00

I Love the Way you LIE.

2011-04-05T15:51:00.000-07:00

Holding back all the time.

And I realised best friends stay with you forever.

Courtesy. You don't have to give if you are not willing to. Save it.

I gave you the heart, and it is in the trash now.

Don't ever be nice to me if you don't want to.

Don't ever smile to me, it is very forceful.

Don't fucking act like you are care, it is not needed.

But I will still be nice.

Being nice to someone you dislike is not fake but you are mature enough to tolerate yur dislike towards them.

Remember? Remember that how good we used to be?

Ridiculous.

2011-03-29T00:54:00.000-07:00

It's like endless, gonna fucking drag you to hell.

You can't make it right when you know it is wrong.

I've been living in sin 'cause I've been really in love.

Sometimes it is too hard to follow your heart.

I'm just another her. Fuck my life.

2011-03-09T02:42:00.000-08:00

Grown-ups always say that things are complicated.

Every beautiful thing hide some kind of pain.

Everything comes with a string attached.

And love is so short, forgetting is so long.

I used to want to be a princess, but there is this thing called grown up ruined it all.

Not innocence but sin.

Haters gonna hate.

2011-02-10T21:04:00.000-08:00

Time will change everything.

And this is how i turned into devil in times.

Yet, this, still the same.

Nice from the outside, broken from the inside.

People normally call me a bitch, so deal with it.

I'm Saki Chew.

2011-01-31T22:57:00.000-08:00

I know that such beautiful memories are like handcuffs.
The more you struggle, the more they twist up. I understand that more that you.

Me and you are like movie, with dishonest protagonist.
By the end, you were crying and insisted leaving on yourself.
You suffer, you don't know what you want to most.

I know the two of us can't compare to the two of you.

The embrace

The smile

The chaotic heart

US.

Love, is like paradise, like prison.

Who you are, where you wanna be?

2011-01-21T19:32:00.000-08:00

It is like I am a puppet to you

I’ll remove the spell that you have put on me again

I beg you, beg you because she tears us apart

tears us apart

every night I feel with you
Do you love her?

everyday I dream of you

do you love me?
i want to hold you in my arms

i will do anything and even more
you are my fantasy

I’ll put everything in stake to have you

I need to stop thinking about you

because I can’t take it no more

in the name of God, why do you worry?

you’re stuck in my heart!

it’s us in the torn picture,

drop her

i’m the boo in the island

i do it for the sake for my plan to get you back

almost everyday you want to break up

my last step towards you

she holds your arm and she kisses your lips

and i hate it that you are in her imagination

I used to be nice, soft and tender,
but if I keep going crazy like this
You’ll change me into something bad
I pretend to be cool
I’m amazed by all of this
Pretending to leave and go meet someone

You,can never,never can guess what the hell is running inside.

2011-01-08T21:53:00.000-08:00

You wear the shoes I gave you and walk along the streets with her

As if it were nothing, you kiss her

You spray the cologne I gave you and embrace her

You'll probably repeat those promises you made to me with her

It seems that we're already too late

Has our love already ended

Please at least say anything to me

We truly loved each other, can't turn back?

I'm the only one hurting tonight

Have you changed?

Am I no longer in your heart now?

When I, I think about you

It hurts, hurts so much

You look at my tears as if it were nothing

You continue to talk calmly again

You told me cruely that you couldn't deny

That you had absolutely no attachments or regrets

Are we already too late? Is our love over?

Even if it's a lie, please tell me it isn't so

I can do better now, though we can't meet again

I'm the only one in pain tonight

You're no longer your old self

Because the you I loved

And the you now are so different

Are you that shocked?

I just stood and cried

Watching you become further away

No way, I can't recognize

You're not mine anymore

Did you have to change?

Can't you come back?

Did you really have to change?

Can't you come back?

Did you have to change?

Can't you come back?

Why did you have to change?

Can't you keep loving me?

Fucking dramatic.

2011-01-06T00:25:00.000-08:00

It is like never stop.

The older it gets, the deeper it goes.

Sin, never be forgotten.

Truth, never sets me free.

Words like sword.

Memories is killing.

Looks good from the outside, completely rotten from the inside.

I don't understand, no longer want to understand.

Breathless.

What I did? What can I do?

Like a toy, by those words and expression.

Never, never thought that it never get better.

Not everyone that blissful, I don't even hope that you feel what I feel.

I'm out of it, i hope.

And there is this quote saying, 'nothing much can do to remedy a family's failure'.

2011-01-05T01:33:00.000-08:00

The wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,

the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,

the stars reassure tired me

they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me

and comfort me,

telling me to go to sleep

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk

though my tears blur my vision

I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart

like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright

it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder

stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me

and gives me a warm hug

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears

I want to laugh like those stars

I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart

Like those countless number of stars, forever

Imma such a faker.

2011-01-04T03:35:00.000-08:00

Everyone is going to hurt, but you just have to select who is worth for the pain.
So, so what?

I always accept the consequences.
I'm broken at times, but this is what makes us stronger.

U never know me, You are just not the one who can get me.

Course is set, with no turning back.

I'm still the one.

2010-12-31T03:36:00.000-08:00

It's dangerous.

Taking the risk, but ain't that easy.

People like us, get what we want with a cruel twist.

Time will fucking prove everything.

Fuck this line, but this is the only line that keeps me moving.

I knew everything, all this while.

Sometimes saying nothing, said everything.

Silent doesn't mean nothing.

Just let it flow.

I won't lose this time, i believe.

I won't let it 'snap'. I won't let it loose.

I promised myself.

So fuck yea.

2010-12-29T03:23:00.000-08:00

Frightening.

When I open my eyes, I can't face the truth.

You gotta pay back, every single time when you got something good.

Not lucky, not lucky enough, easy to let go, tough to get back.

You won't know, you won't know when would it come.

I believe in karma.

I'm a bad person.

I knew it all along.

Gosh, when it 'snap' again, the worst one, those screw loosen again, in my brain.

You probably will meet me in mental hospital.

This ain't a joke but this is not true.

2010-12-27T22:45:00.000-08:00

Because of you, I remember crying til dawn boy

I regret every time I think about you when my heart was too easy, huh boy?

I'm too good to throw away and too boring to have

You should've treated me better when we were together, why are you clinging me now?

You fooled me with your lies hundred of times

From today on, I'll be the bad girl who makes guys cry

Now without a single tear, I'll laugh at you

Loser who's inside a game called love

Get on you knees and take me back

If not, get the fuck out of my sight right now

From now on I really don't care, I'll get out of the way

Boy, I don't care.

2010-12-26T13:39:00.000-08:00

You’re so cheap and this isn’t like you

I can’t get used to it now, It makes me dizzy, why

Think it over before you say it.

A guy that used to follow me around, a very decent guy

I let everything go for you alone

And ya try living without me.

Tonight of all times, why is it raining again

It makes me look so pitiful

Don’t try to console me

Move this hand, we’re strangers now

Just say what you gotta say

How can you be uncool to the very end?

I’m walkin’ out of destiny

Not pitifully alone, but a glamorous solo
That’s my way
I gave it my all, so I don’t have regrets

Pretending like you’re more sad
Pretending you’re cool to the end

All you do is act a fool
You ain’t shit without your crew

Don’t worry about me and go away

I’ll disappear, no strings attached
You thought I’d hang onto you
It’s disgusting, don’t misunderstand

I’ll meet someone so much better

I’ll make you regret it all

Sadness is only for now, boy

I don't have time, i gotta go
Cause' love is over

Love, love is over tonight.

Just, go away.

2010-12-25T02:12:00.000-08:00

Love, Can't live with it.
Can't live without it.

I ain't lucky, lack abit of it.

Fuck this, let me be completely heartless.

Because more than half of it is already broken.

2010-12-24T04:09:00.000-08:00

God is the only one who can do everything, human should just do what they are capable for.

You should love yourself before it is made illegal.

Everyone is gonna to hurt you, but you just need to select who is worth for the pain.

And if you don't know how to fix it, stop breaking it.

Love is like paradise, like prison.

And you don't need to break me, because I already broken.

Love is not a feeling, its a capability.

You listen to people a lot, because its empty inside you.

Like, the one who laugh the loudest is actually the saddest one.

Time will fucking prove everything.

And I'm still about this thing call love.

2010-12-23T00:55:00.000-08:00

I'm lying here in the dark

I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot

Softly my two eyes close

My tears trickle down

I’m afraid for everything

if this is the end

So many things I didn’t say

My shaking, burning hot lips

This heart can’t take it for even a day

U won't understand even if i told ya, they are all in my brain.
In my brain. lol.

2010-12-22T23:05:00.000-08:00

Have you ever love someone so much, you'd give a arm for?

Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?

When they know they are you heart,

And you know you are their armor

And you will destroy anyone who whould try to harm' em

But what happens, when karma turn around and bites you?

And everything you stand for, turns on you, despite you?

What happens when you become the main source of the pain?

Its so freaking sad, seriously.
Eminem is just awesome.

2010-12-22T18:51:00.000-08:00

Both of them, in the theatre, holding hand.

It was a love story.

It was very good in the beginning, but it just ended up miserably.

The fact that, they can become closer and closer but they can never be together.

She cried, tears non-stop dropping on the cheek.

He hugged her tightly, he felt terribly remorseful.

It wasn't because the movie was sad, but it was the last movie that she watched with him.

2010-12-13T13:13:00.000-08:00

When you walk,

when you talk,

I get the tingle,

I wanna mingle,

this is what I want.

You got me goin'

You're so charmin'

But I can't do it.

I knew this all along.

U fucking womanizer.

2010-12-12T15:20:00.000-08:00

" I don't want to give up anything for love, but I don't want ended with my career alone and with no love. "

2010-12-10T10:09:00.000-08:00

It doesn't matter if u are slow,at least u started moving.
Sort of relief, bit by bit.

U wouldn't know how it feels. When it strikes,ur heart stop for awhile. It sank.
I knew it all along.
Never,never lose in the game.

And when I'm losing,i will surrender.

The eyes, the smile, the feeling, to me or you, they are all fake.

So, this is the ugly truth.

~~FuckU~~.

2010-11-20T01:36:00.000-08:00

I'm chillin' and flossin'

It's seven o'clock

I issue a warning

That's right, we're stealing this show

Damn right, letting 'em know

See I don't need a freeloader

No I don't want a freeloader

If you want a piece of this stuff

Got to give, got to give something

I love you nothing but only your fucking sexy boxers.

2010-11-14T01:17:00.000-08:00

Do not worrry, I am fine, just go the way you were traveling

I’ve been so sorry for making things hard
I won’t give reasons or excuses anymore
Thank you for loving me thus far

When tears come out, I will smile, just the way you did for me
I am smiling like a fool, as I send you away

Please take care of that person, I still linger for that person
Once I love you I cannot let go of your hand
Once I send you away, I am hurting like this
It’s too late, but I am still happy

I don’t know why, you worried for me so much
You’ll never know how much I regret this
Because I am like you, I’ve suddenly become a lingering fool
I’ve become pitiful after you left
It’s laughable that I could not be with you when you were here and I am like this now after you left

As my tears hit the back of my hand without a sound
I should be smiling but I cried instead
When I think of that person, when I miss that person
Smiling and crying can no longer console me

Please take care of that person, for the last time…
If I could see that person, I will smile brightly

If you see me, please smile

Never,never,you never right,for what u are thinking now.

2010-11-06T12:35:00.000-07:00

Every time I heard about you, I ended up messing up that day

Why does it still feel like you still belong to me?

How can you bring someone else into my spot?

When will my heart calm down to your news, your name?

When will my heart be able to call the times we spent just memories?

My stupid heart, my stupid heart only knows one

How can I bring someone else into your spot?

If you came back, if can wish for anything I want you next to me

The happy memoires, they are all just tears for me

Yeah,purking dramatic. This post would be great if its dedicated to U.

2010-10-23T00:08:00.000-07:00

One of the kind.

Words can't describe US.

Only we know each other.

Happy birthday babe.

Love u lots.

Enough said.

2010-10-10T22:09:00.000-07:00

Unable to guess

Getting along with each other is lonelier then breaking up.

Two person is just satisfied just to get through.

Unable to feel every touch.

It's real.

If a sudden far, a sudden close escape is the freedom you want,

then I rather go back to the life of being alone.

If a sudden cold, a sudden hot warmth is your excuse,

then I rather to have never been serious with you.

In this feeling, who's right or wrong?

I already don't want to investigate it anymore

The more you care about someone, the more unguessable it is.

Unguessable.

2010-09-19T14:10:00.000-07:00

I stare at my reflection in the mirror.
Why am I doing this to myself.

Losing my mind on a tiny error.

I nearly left the real me on the shelf.

To lose it all in the blur of the start

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing.

~~It's okay not to be okay.~~

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.

Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising.

Just be true to who you are.

Who you are?

There is no reason not to follow your heart.-Steve Job.

2010-09-17T18:50:00.000-07:00

叶子，

远方，

背影，

那颗心仿佛毫无保留的向下垂，

不见了，

找不到，

尝试，

再试，

不在了，

不再爱了。

你还记不记的我的爱？

2010-09-15T20:19:00.000-07:00

Love is pain

say goodbye

I was just walking blankly

You just left me like this

How can you end this?

I can only cry, I'm going crazy

I'm crazy
I hate you, really

I'm not going to see you ever again

Aren't you even sorry?

I forgave you even when

you cheated on me with another girl

I'm just sitting here, and I remember you

I hate you so much

Please help me, anyone

I love you too much to escape from it

I'm falling in you
I try everything I can to shake you off of me

The sky falls on me when I think

that I can't see you from now on

I'm falling in you

i can't leave

I sit at our usual spot in the coffee shop we always used to go to

I wait for you, just in case you come right now

I wait, and you don't come

I just cry

Separation should be liveable

But it makes me suffer until I faint

For the first time, a hole went through my heart

You can ever love alone

I hate you but I can't forget

What should I do?

Don't be silly. Like I fucking sit there and thinking about you all the time?

2010-09-06T12:48:00.000-07:00

Just portray me as a bad person.

Please, tell the whole world, it was my bad.

Satisfied?

And please, tell the whole world, how happy you are.

It is the greatest repay.

Never, never say, there wasn't exist any distastes.

Honesty, gives true hurt.

You maybe never realised, acceptance is the greatest key to proceed, for everything, love.

And I held this key once.

You maybe never really looked into my eyes, there were a lot in them.

Love, sadness, disappointment..

You maybe never accepted the fact, that, the heart problem.

Understanding, says it all.

I tried.

I followed.

Think, and think again, what changed us.

I thought it would last forever.

Just potray me as a bad person.

I already sick of saying thank you and sorry.

No matter how I act, people will still judge me eventually.

Just potray me as a bad person.

Please tell, tell all the friends, the life is better now.

The one who truly understand the way we are.
The one who willing to accept everything.
Our past, our flaws.

Will finally appear.

2010-09-05T02:00:00.000-07:00

Look inside, look inside your tiny mind

Then look a bit harder

'Cause we're so uninspired, so sick and tired

Of all the hatred you harbor

So please don't stay in touch

'Cause your words don't translate

And it's getting quite late

Do you really enjoy?

Living a life that's so hateful?

'Cause there's a hole where your soul should be

You're losing control a bit

And it's really distasteful

People like you that need to get slew

No one wants your opinion

Fuck you, fuck you, very very much.

2010-09-04T10:21:00.000-07:00

After I saw you laying next to her

I didn't wanna but I took my turn

I'm glad I did it ? Cause you had to learn

I must admit it helped a little bit

To think of how you'd feel when you saw it

I didn't know that I had that much strength

But I'm glad you see what happens when

You see you can't just play with people's feelings

Tell them you love them and don't mean it

You'll probably say that it was juvenile

But I think that I deserve to smile

HA~ HA~ HA~

You know I did it ? Cause I left my mark

Wrote my initials with a crowbar

And then I drove up into the dark

You should feel lucky that was all I did

After 5 whole years of this bullshit

~~Gave you all of me and you~~ played with it

You can ~~never~~ mend it even if you tried.

Fuck you, asshole.

2010-09-03T02:56:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday!!!
Great night with ya.
May god bless ya.
Love ya loads.

Quote for u: " Sometimes life's going to hit you in a head with a brick. Don't love faith." - Steve Jobs

Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
Enjoy to the fullest!
HUGSSS & KISSES.

2010-08-30T03:03:00.000-07:00

The north wind unsentimentally blows the leaves down

Weak, she chooses to escape

Upon realizing the leaves are gone, the wind starts to feel lonely

All winter long, the pain of the north wind is indescribable

I’d never imagined I could act this way

I’d never loved before so I loved wrongly

Where I took off, that's where I landed

How many unforgivable mistakes can one make before there's no starting over

Searching through the corners of memory, a perfect life

I used to think happiness could be controlled

Carefully returning to the beginning, that back story

Oh, so it was me who made a mistake I never acknowledged

In this world without you, oh, I can’t recover that old feeling

Actually I don’t want to say goodbye to all that has happened

Yet, it's too late i guess

2010-08-22T03:41:00.000-07:00

You couldn’t say a thing in front of me, but you could talk badly about me behind my back. I’m dumbfounded.

It seems like the first time, you’ve seen a girl like me.

Why do you judge me?

Are you afraid of me, perhaps?

On the outside, I’m a Bad Girl.

On the inside, I’m a Good Girl.

You don’t even know me well, you only look at me from the outside.

I find your gaze to be funny because you see me as a pitiful girl.

When I dance, I’m a Bad Girl.

When I love, I’m a Good Girl.

When you watch me dance, you become mesmerized, but are you done after you watch?

I find your hypocrisy to be funny because you point at me.

These kind of clothes, this kind of hair, a girl who does these kind of dances is obvious.

You’re even more obvious.

If you don’t have any confidence, go to the back.

You just need to step back.

Why do you keep making noise?

Don’t you know that your heart can clearly be seen?

I’m looking for a man who can handle me.

I’m looking for a real man, not a man who acts like one through words.

Isn’t there a man who won’t make me anxious because he overflows with confidence?

So that I can be me, so that I can watch him freely from afar?

You Don’t Know Me

So, Shut Up.

2010-08-20T13:19:00.000-07:00

Getting used to a strange world, waking up the sealed longings.

How are you like, you who are destined to continue the pining in the slow-moving years?

Leaving behind a diary of languishing.

The wind strikes my face, bringing me back a long time to that day.

It turns out that love, exists for you.

Hidden in a few generations before the awakening of love,

It is revealed that time, shuffling past everyday,

Is simply looking forward to the point where we first meet.

Whose scent in the dream, revived the age-old memories of passionate love?

And now, whatever you are like, do you miss the past as well?

The words and sentences that you used to pine for.

The wind has swept away the past, but it is unable to vanquish our shared moments.

It turns out that love, exists for you.

Hidden in a few generations before the awakening of love,

It is revealed that time, shuffling past everyday,

Is simply looking forward to the point where we first meet.

Who borrowed the deeply hidden segment of love and forgot to return it?

So time is really an uncuttable circle,

I've met you thus, to continue our unfinished lament.

And i can still remember, the part when she died.

The pillow was all wet.

2010-08-19T19:00:00.000-07:00

A quiet wind passing by the shoulders

The eyes carrying hints of hate

Its appearance tells us that we will never change

Every corner of slashed pain disappears quickly in the dark

An unbroken circle of worries and grieves

Ignoring warm and cold

How can't my heart melt the moment I saw you

Having only a scarred heart, that I may bring myself to say more words

The dark blue sky can't separate the hatred from foolishness; to be lovers is such a wishful thinking

Although the separation is unavoidable, it makes this moment before the eyes more cherishable

I know that distance makes the heart grow fonder

I know not if this is foolish, however, even if we're separated, this heart will never change

I've gone through so many heartbreaks

I've gone in and out the thoughts of the past

Let me kiss you again, kiss you once more

Once parted, don't know when we will see each other again

It's always unchangeable in a love story.

2010-08-13T18:02:00.000-07:00

Generous shoulders, fingers clean and slender

Your laughter’s like the big sea, there’s light in your eyes

I imagine that you must be like this

You haven’t appeared yet but I’m already in love with you

We haven’t met yet and I already miss you

Want to give me love, if you’re still thinking about it

And want me to wait, I’ll wait

North, South, in some distant place

There must be a heaven of love

We use love and happiness on the other side

And share a pair of wings to fly

Please find me at the right time

If we meet at an intersection, please recognize me

Belong to my love, first grow it in your heart

Please feel for me, wait until it becomes familiar

Even though it’s occasionally lonely, even after waiting it’s still endless

If by any chance youth is too short

However you just need to look at the distant place to strengthen your faith

That only the best you can give me the best love

I’m very certain that that not very distant, faraway place

Will have our love’s heaven

The heart will be warm and the smile brilliant

Sandstorms and stars will always be together

And maybe it is true.

2010-08-11T12:30:00.000-07:00

Of all the people who know how to make me smile,

There is none more talented than you.

Crashing easily into my heart,

You complete the beautiful dreams of tomorrow.

Of all the vast, endless universe,

Every little planet revolves around you.

Loving me, that’s you without a doubt.

I’m willing to protect the happiness that you grant me.

Loving me, that’s you without a doubt.

Maybe we’ll end up laughing while crying, but because it is you, I’m not afraid of pain.

The person who knows how to make me cry,

Must emanate the deepest emotion.

Leaving scars in my heart,

You lit up the stars at the same time.

See, there were so many encounters,

But only with you can we create miracles worthy of Heaven and Earth.

Oh, the crevices in my heart,

I think that besides you, nobody can fill up the emptiness.

Because it is you, I’m not afraid of pain.

2010-08-06T01:28:00.000-07:00

Every day I make a wish if I could be the one for you

Even if I was given the world, I don't need it

I just want to make you happy, but no

I just want to make you smile

if I could ever be the one

Even if I was given the world, I don't need it

I just want to make you happy, but

if I could ever be the one

Sadly, I just want to cry

That's how much I want to feel you

For one word, one strand of hope

I've waited so long

There's a lot of pain, so before it's too late

Please tell me if I could ever be the one

With tears falling down I put my hands together

I pray, I pray

That I could meet you and hold you

If I could ever be the one

2010-08-03T16:37:00.000-07:00

我當你是新娘

路不去教堂

現在我也不會

癱在路旁

看著你轉彎

我不該當你是新娘

怎會有未來可講

你只是走累了

借我肩膀

僅僅是這樣

2010-08-03T09:55:00.000-07:00

Yea, Baby Boo

I'm always thinking about you

Whatever you do, I'll always trust you

You know,We belong together

Boy I'm ready for your love

You got me going steady for your love

Nobody but you I'm thinking of

So heavenly so obvious

Oh baby, I'm so ready for your love

Ain't nobody but you I'm thinking of

That's only because we belong together

Never mind your probs and woes

We can sail away and free those

Everyday type city life

Now it's our time, enjoy this view

The sun is out and it's all about you and me

Let's get this groove on

Get a move on

Hey, let's cruise on

Until the morning

Oh ma baby boo.

2010-07-29T11:22:00.000-07:00

Leave

Finally I realize that I am nothing without you

I was so wrong, forgive me

My broken heart like a wave

My shaken heart like a wind

My heart vanished like smoke

It can't be removed like a tattoo

I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in

Only dusts are piled up in my mind

I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you

But somehow I managed to live on longer than I thought

You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you"

I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless

Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?

I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you

I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times

Don't look back and leave

Don't find me again and live on

Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories

I can bear it in some way

I can stand in some way

You should be happy if you are like this

I become dull day by day

You're my all, say goodbye...

If we pass by each other on the street

Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to

If you keep thinking about our past memories

I might go look for you secretly

I hope your heart fees relieved

Please forget about me and live on

Those tears will dry completely

As time passes by

It would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all

Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby

I pray for you.

And now i know...how fake can I be.

2010-07-29T00:13:00.000-07:00

i lie again today, holding another girl

i pretend not to know, even though i know you're crying after hanging up the phone

since some time, i've become used to treating you badly

because you were always behind me, you always trusted me.. i became foolish

you've become tired and tired.. you've become sick of it

i regret it so much.. even if you hate me like crazy

you already left and you're gone

i'm trapped inside the same lies and the loneliness everyday

your heart is already closed to the excuses you heard everyday

but now, i see you...

I guess i'm still long for you

I hate myself for being a Fool.

2010-07-28T10:25:00.000-07:00

ι αℓωαуѕ ѕαηg ƒσя уσυ
α ѕмιℓє αℓωαуѕ gяα¢є∂ уσυя ℓιρѕ
ησω ωнєη ι нєαя тнαт ѕσηg ι αм ѕα∂∂єηє∂
α ¢σяηєя σƒ му нєαят α¢нєѕ ση¢є αgαιη

I guess I still love you.

2010-07-24T10:41:00.000-07:00

There is one thing I want to tell you

Though you probably won’t hear it

It is just too difficult to keep in my heart

I can no longer take it anymore

Because of one person, because of that person

I hurt by myself

No matter how much I forget, no matter how much I erase

You are the one that I can’t

To tell you, to tell you these words

The tears that my heart sent

Are running down both my eyes once again

There is a place I want to show you

My torn apart heart

There isn’t even one day when I’m excused from missing you

Is it not there, not anywhere in your heart?

Is there really no place where I can come in?

Then perhaps for my whole life

I’m always a step behind you

I hate myself for falling U. Yet i can't be only with you.

2010-07-23T11:15:00.000-07:00

one bright and sunny day

You appeared to me by chance

We were innocent, it was love at first sight

Looking into each other's eyes we knew each other's hearts

Our love could stand up to the strongest winds

We held hands from the day we met til the day we broke up

I remember our nervous first kiss

And the letters we exchanged each day

It must be a disease, this cry for love

Each time I try to escape, it becomes even harder

Why did it have to be you.. you're like an addiction

Please set me free from your shadow

Oh ma baby, You're the only one within my heart. I will always love you

2010-07-21T01:56:00.000-07:00

I'm sure that, there are some people will always be there for me.
Friends are important, yet I don't need too much.
I already have those who always have my back.

I don't need to do wotever u did.
Althought I'm not good enough, I will be very fine.
Idiot will be eliminated from my life, you better stop being and acting like an idiot, ~~idiot~~. =)

2010-07-05T15:55:00.000-07:00

Heartbreaker.

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Needs rest.

100th post! <3

2010-07-05T11:26:00.000-07:00

When the music changes, so does the dance.

Sorry for having flaw that being incapable.

It always happened. Expected.

Most probably is just because that you are not the one.

2010-06-29T19:33:00.000-07:00

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2010-06-25T04:53:00.000-07:00

I don't purposely plan or do things to love or to be loved.

If it's yours, it will come to you no matter how.

And that time only you do things you need to.

What's the point of doing something for no return?

If it's not yours,no matter how you try, it will never be.

Be realistic. Since there is not much people understand about 'appreciation'.

Truth is, everyone's going to hurt you. You just have to find the ones worth suffering for. So, be strong.

I doubt there is anyone dare to admit that they are capable enough to constribute in love.

Everything comes with a price.

Aren't we all human the same? (In my own opinion)

However, there is always a rare chance to make occassion an exception.

2010-06-25T00:16:00.000-07:00

The heart is the thing that will never lie.

Things forbidden have a secret charm.

You make me crazier at times.

Yet I'm not ~~greedy~~ in this thing.

2010-06-24T23:57:00.000-07:00

I wanna say thank you.
Thanks for the thought sometimes.
Every little thing you did.
Although they weren't much you did, I appreciate them.
There are a lot of obstacles for your girl to get over by what people said. They are all facts.
However,still, you are the one and only one.

There is still a place for you.

And it's still hurt.

To the one who I once hated so much.

2010-06-20T05:46:00.000-07:00

Sometimes im too self-loving,til i always think too much.
But,are ya seriously talking about me?

Thanks,no matter what the answer it is..
Thanks for everything.And ya every thought.

To the one who made a wrong call. :)

2010-06-19T23:23:00.000-07:00

The language of friendship is not words but meanings.

Take care,bee hoon.

And i saw it,thanks.

Happy Father's day.

2010-06-01T22:38:00.000-07:00

It's too much at one time.

It's too tough at times.

I'm tired.

I'm lazy.

But i will stay strong.

Tough cookie.

2010-05-29T00:09:00.000-07:00

Last year present was heels but this time i'm kinda ~~broke~~.
So its gonna to be picture and words.
Firstly, HapPY BirtHdaYYYY to you my wifey!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
I really hope that I could be there for you this moment..No matter how we gonna celebrate it..Because this is the second time of your birthday but i'm out somewhere again. =[

Okay. I would like to wish you all the best in the near future as you are just graduated.
I will give ya support no matter what decision you gonna make,ok?
I will always be there for you whenever you need me (if im capable,atleast,i hope!)

To be frank with you, I don't know since when I feel that I'm become closer and closer with you.
However, it's a great thing I guess? HAHA. Of course it is! To me =]
I do really care about almost every single thing about ya,I check ya blog so frequent. Like everyday? XD

I hope for the best for you,for everything of you!
I hope you gonna be tough when you encounter any problem. And you are tough I know!

I'm short of time now,because now is 6 minutes to ya big day!!!

Lastly, I wish you can find what you always wanted!
Whatever it is, you do when you want to. As long as you know its right for you.
Always listen to your heart =]

Happy birthday to you!!! *hugsssss* *kissesssss*
AND....

I LOVE YOU,MY DEAREST SISTER. *teary*
~~I miss you..~~